2k

I had to pull my 2k (2000m) test today on the erg.  I felt that I was mentally prepared and ready for this thing.  My training started off well going into the offseason but with exams around the corner and getting caught up on school work, I was still erging but not doing it enough.  The test today was probably the worst test I've done.  The first 1250m went exactly as I had envisioned and played out in my head for the last week.  But then disaster struck.  Getting into the last 750m, the lactic acid in my body just built up, and it was literally the hardest I've ever gone on a 2k.  I could barely push my body up and down the slides, it felt like my lungs were slowly coming out of my chest.  Then it was done.  All 6 mins and 39.9 seconds of it.  The same time that I had pulled in August for training camp after driving 10 days across the country to get to Kingston to show off all the hard work I had completed.  Today had felt like a failure.  While there were a few bright spots to the test, it either shows that I am still in the exact same shape as when I started this season, which is not a good sign, or I psyched myself out and pushed my body too hard when it is not ready for it yet.  All in all, it's demoralizing and something I need to figure out if I have any dreams of trying to make a national squad. Something like this will only push me harder, but it is times like this I wish I was still playing Basketball, and perhaps on a Varsity team if I had decided to keep working at that.  Who knows? For now, it's back to studying for exams.